Mental:
All I can remember about this day is being stressed out. 3 day weekends are nice, but the beginning of a 4 day work week is not fun... I don't remember much of today except for the fact that I was looking forward to institute and seeing good friends.
I just need to mention a couple of things here. This week taught me a lot about friends. I learned that friends are people who are kind to you and who care for you. Friends are people who have your best interest in mind. Friends are people who smile when they see you. Do you ever wonder about that? When I see friends, I light up. It is instinctive for me to smile when I see the people who make my life that much greater. It is harder to smile at strangers and even harder to smile at people who may have done you wrong. But today I was grateful to smile at those who give me something to smile about.
Also, speaking of friends. I need to take the time to thank Jimmy Rex for being a great friend. I didn't always know Jimmy very well, but he is becoming one of my favorites very quickly. This guy is sharp, funny, and overall a good hearted person! He's been helping me out with a big decision in my life right now and honestly, without his help I would have no idea what I am doing. Aside, from just helping me out with this decision, he has just been a great person to be around. He sends out lots of positive vibes!
Spiritual:
If you don't attend institute, I highly recommend that you do. Johnny Gray taught an excellent lesson based on Elder Holland's talk from General Conference in October. This talk moves me to tears just thinking about it. It is so beautiful and such a testament of the Savior's love for each of us. All of us at some point in our lives are going to endure trials that will drag us to near depression, if not completely immersed in depression. I believe the Lord lets us have these moments, whether short or long term, because it is an opportunity for us to feel His love. Having faith throughout depression is a difficult task, but with the Savior, all things are possible. Our minds are just as fragile as our bodies. At the same time though, our minds can be strong like our bodies. We use different resources to make our bodies strong and to keep ourselves healthy, so we should do the same with our minds. Whether it is medication, deep reflection, etc., we need to do all we can to care for our mind, body, and spirit.
Physical:
Tonight I cried. I see that as a physical expression of my thoughts and emotions. I cried because I was grateful. I was grateful to be spiritually uplifted, to be reminded of my Savior's love. I was grateful for my friends and for people I continue to meet. A good cry was what I needed tonight.
"Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before -- more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle."
- Charles Dickens, Great Expectations
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